Sunday, October 28, 2007

Iceland: the Next Adventure

If I suffer from any addiction, wholly and completely, it's travel.

For as long as I can remember, I've been fascinated with the idea of going and seeing. Driving, riding, walking, exploring... and experiencing the world from a previously unknown perspective. Putting myself in uncomfortable situations, being out of my element, meeting new, different people and being surprised and enlightened by what I didn't know. There's something hopeful and perfectly exhilarating about it.

My parents started it. Oddly enough, today they are slightly mystified by my insatiable travel bug, yet as a kid, my mother said to me over and over again, "You can do anything if you put your heart in it. If you work hard and believe in yourself, you can go anywhere - you can see and do anything." I don't think she realized how intently I was listening - how definitively I counted on executing her plan.

My first true taste of travel was at the age of 13, when my parents had finally gained financial ground and has some spare money for a family vacation. Having a deep interest in the Civil War and history, my Dad convinced us all that Gettysburg, Pennsylvania would be a worthy, affordable trip. I was so ecstatic to be leaving... to be crossing a state line and venturing onto unseen soils that I didn't care where we went. Gettysburg became a yearly retreat for our family, and while I grew bored with visiting the same monuments and eating at the same restaurants each year, the pure excitement of leaving home never lost its thrill.

I daydreamed and pined for the day that I would get to leave the country. My dreams came true in more ways than one when I met and fell in love with John, now my husband. John's mom, Noreen Yost, is not only the most wonderful mother-in-law a girl could possibly ask for, but she's also a part-time travel agent.

It started in 2002. After a year together, my Christmas gift from Johnny was an airline ticket to Amsterdam, Holland. Yes, my first trip to a foreign country was to one of the most eye-opening, mind-bending cities in the world. Let's just say 'culture shock' doesn't quite do justice to my first glimpse of Europe. We were traveling with John's friend, Ben, who was the epitome of a pothead. I was a good girl with a romanticized idea of European travel, stuck in the Red Light District at one of the seediest hostels in town. It was one of the most invigorating experiences of my life, and I remember every detail with photographic clarity. The week challenged and strengthened our relationship, and did the same to my soul. We stayed in hostels, bought meals at the grocery and farmer's markets, saw the Van Gogh and History museums, visited the Anne Frank house, the zoo, and the botanical gardens, took a train to an unknown town and saw cheese and chocolate factories, and experienced first-hand the drug culture and it's affect on the citizens and tourists. I left Amsterdam with a mounting craving ...

Ben, John and Me. Near the Van Gogh Museum, Amsterdam (March 2002)

My next opportunity abroad came the following year. We splurged with our credit cards (which we're still paying) and purchased a one-week trip to Ireland. It was a deal we couldn't refuse: $600 per person bought round-trip airfare, a rental car with unlimited miles, breakfast each day, Bed & Breakfast vouchers for four nights, and two nights in a castle! I found Ireland a beautiful and enchanting country, from the gorgeous landscapes to its open, kind-hearted citizens. We felt at home there, driving from Dublin south to Cork, visiting abandoned castles and pubs along the way. We followed the Ring of Kerry, staying at a B&B on Valencia Island where the locals did Irish dancing in the pub at dusk. We drove through Limerick, through Galway to the Cliffs of Moher, then finished our stay at the castle in the center of the green countryside.

Killarney, Ireland (February, 2003)

After that trip, I'd made up my mind. I would do anything to continue traveling.

The following November we decided to explore our own neck of the woods. We packed up my Geo Prizm and spent nine days cross-country, visiting the Rockies, Arches and Zion in Utah, the Grand Canyon, Petrified Forest in Arizona, and White Sands and Carlsbad Caverns of New Mexico.

And three months later, I moved to London, England for four months, which is a whole story in and of itself. Before flying home, I blew every pound I'd earned on a two week bus tour of Europe, visiting Paris, Nice and Cannes, Monaco, Florence, Rome, Venice, Western Austria, Munich, and once again, Amsterdam.

London broke me, financially. I was never able to truly afford my trips, and after living abroad, my school loans finally kicked in and traveling seemed outrageous.

But if something is a priority, it's never impossible. Opportunities to continue traveling have continued to find me, one way or another. John's parents sent us to Greece for our honeymoon. And thanks to Noreen, we've been able to work as tour escorts on two trips to Italy - one at a Tuscan Villa, the other near Naples and the Almalfi Coast.

Our Honeymoon in Greece: The Parthenon in Athens, October 2005.

This year, we spent any spare penny we had on a two-week cross country trip to California and the North West. I didn't expect to go abroad again for awhile, with money tight and airfare prices skyrocketing. But low and behold, we are fortunate to venture out again... this time, to Iceland!

As an early Christmas gift, John's parents have bought us a three day package to Reykjavik for Thanksgiving! We are beyond psyched, and incredibly grateful to have such generous parents in our lives. I'll be sure to write all about it when we come back... another moment of exploration and growth.

As far as I'm concerned, there is no better expenditure than a vacation. We may have hand-me-down, mismatched furniture, minimal belongings, and used cars, but we have memories and experiences that will last forever.

Toonces takes a bath



what would we do without Toonces? she gives us hours and hours of entertainment, laughs, and snuggles. she's the closest we've come to having a kid, and for now, she's our 'little girl.'

censoring myself

how can i possibly be a good blogger if i'm afraid to put it out there? lately i've found myself hesitating at the keyboard... censoring my thoughts. it's been weeks since i've written, yet i wrote an entire entry this past week, only to delete it. i wasn't in the best of moods at the time, and i didn't want to scare off what few readers i may have.

when i was younger, i had multiple journals.... poetry books and diaries dating back until second grade... stacks of blank books filled entirely with my childhood thoughts and ponderings. i let loose in those books, unabashedly, free to let go of everything with the safe comfort of knowing no one would ever read it.

i'm struggling to let go here, as i did then. i fear conflict, i fear offending anyone, i fear making a fool of myself.

but rather than wallow in self-deprecation, i'm going to continue to post. i'll never come to terms with these fears if i don't try...

Monday, October 22, 2007

something else, uncensored *

* As mentioned in my earlier post, here is the entry I wrote earlier this week, then decided not to post. There's nothing to be ashamed of here, but I guess I was hesitant to admit that I don't always have it all figured out. I'm publishing this in an attempt to quell my fears of letting go. Here's to no holding back.

Before I jumped into blog-land, I had a "news" section on my old website that was essentially the same thing, minus the bells and whistles of Blogger. I was sorting through the old HTML pages, and found this quote:

"...it's been three months in the big city now, and--granted I have been out of town for quite a lot of it--I must admit that the speed of life here is exhausting and worrisome. I find myself frequently daydreaming about living in a little house in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by space and nature: two things I currently see very little of. " - December 4, 2005, New York City

I find this snippet of memory both heart wrenching and enlightening. Almost two years later, I am as close to that little house as I possibly could be, yet I am no less of a wandering, seeking heart than I was then.

It's curious to me - the idea of the eternal nomad, always moving, always changing directions, always finding a path to explore. Sometimes I wonder if this is what I am destined to do - a never-ending search for truth and adventure. I am hesitant to accept this fate for fear of spending a life zig-zagging in no definite direction, discovering, once it's too late, that a settled and focused life has passed me by. Yet, my path of late would indicate that this is precisely where I'm headed.

Reading that entry has stirred up a feeling of familiarity: restlessness with the idea of settling. I've written about it once before:

"I believe that many people find satisfaction and fulfillment in settling... Now that I'm as close to being settled as ever, with no moving plans in the near future and no destination vacations scheduled, I feel restless." - March 25, 2006, Albany

I'm writing about it in attempt to sort it out in my head. Why do I feel like this? I am perfectly content with the choices I've made that have brought me to where I am, and I am equally content with my life as it is right now. In fact, I couldn't really ask for anything more.

Yet the feeling is there. The yearning for something different, something else. An insatiable travel bug, a curious drive to give more, do more, learn more. And a firm desire to run myself ragged trying to fix the world. It can't be done alone, I know, but I can't help but wonder how long I will meander until I'm burnt out.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

everything's coming up music

funny how life's happenings sometimes group themselves naturally, all occurring at once. this week has been host to one of these odd clusterings of events.... and it has been music to my ears. literally.

it began last saturday, when john and i drove out to boston for an evening with The National, currently touting their newest album, Boxer. the show was at the Roxy, a cool and neon-lit nightclub complete with twirling discoball that reminded me of London's Electric Ballroom. but the sweet venue was just the beginning.... the show ROCKED, in every sense of the word. the guys were spot-on, having a ball onstage, getting the crowd pumped and tipping back Stellas all the while. fantastic.



that same night, whilst we were bopping our heads in Boston, a huge music fest with a slew of our most favorite bands happened on Randalls Island in NYC. we would have went had we not already bought our National tickets. yes, we would miss Arcade Fire's final performance on the Neon Bible tour. yes, we would miss LCD Soundsystem and Blonde Redhead. we had come to terms with it already. but the night wouldn't let us forget what we missed. the next morning john was reading his daily dose of music news from pitchfork media and discovered that our friend Isaac had attended the show, capturing the most amazing video footage of Arcade Fire's newsworthy romp... so amazing that they wrote about it! See the video for yourself...



Power Out / Lies from casiotone on Vimeo.

also in musical news, the foo fighters were in glens falls last night. yes. you heard that right. foo fighters as in dave grohl as in nirvana as in modern rock at its finest... here. at the glens falls civic center. apparently, they're warming up for an upcoming tour and chose a low-key locale to do so. i didn't get to go... but my boss Derek went and reported that it was "freaking awesome."

then (yes there is more) today. angels flew down from heaven, entered the buzzing cables and wires connecting computers worldwide, and delivering the most beautiful sounds directly to our inbox at 7am. or noon, if you're a brit like radiohead.... whom today, after four years of hush-hush with the occasional slip of something in the works... released their seventh album, In Rainbows. completely self-produced and released, it was only announced 10 days ago that the album even existed, and - equally exciting - the online download is whatever price you want. unreal. like a whirlwind, radiohead soared down and planted a rainbow kiss upon our cheeks.... ok, ok, enough already. of course, In Rainbows is nothing short of incredible. i would expect no less from the boys.

and lastly... to put a personal twist on this week of musical madness, i've been strumming the guitar like never before. me and my three phenomenally talented and uber-cool colleagues at trampoline design are performing this friday evening, 7pm, for a local business media night and benefit concert. we've ended each work day this week with an all-out jam session, and let me tell you, we are hot. i mean, come on... just LOOK at this picture:


our performance will be the perfect nightcap for a week of beeeautiful musical magic.

"Hold ourselves together with our arms around the stereo for hours
While it sings to itself or whatever it does
when it sings to itself of its long lost loves
I’m getting tied, I’m forgetting why"


- The National