a breather

this summer is being yanked out from underneath me. it seems that every day i'm looking at the calendar in amazement, mulling over the often-heard words... 'where has the time gone?' everyone says it, yet there's still no moment's rest to even look.

i enjoy being busy, but i can never truly appreciate my life routines without a second to stop, take a breather, and glance back. today, for the first time since spring, i have that moment. oddly though, i am tired. the 90 degree heat has my head in a fog, and i want to do nothing more than find a patch of grass... or beach... and veg-out.

it's not like me to be so lazy, but this past week has been the culmination of a summer packed to the brim with constant fun. it began with our two-week roadtrip... a physical and mental adventure that jolted us directly into the thick of July. upon returning, i began a new job. another moment of standing at the threshold of unknown; another journey beginning. it's been fun and exciting and challenging and fortunately the most steadfast calm of the summer. next came the move.... a house we thought we would rent and the dreaming of a country retreat turned into a 2-week race to find any apartment that would do. luckily, we found a great one.... open and cozy and classic and modern all at the same time. the moving process was a long and exhausting one, grabbing chunks of our evenings and weekends over the course of a week.

and in between it all has been the train of weddings.... two so far, three more to go. it's interesting to realize that throughout my crazy summer, couples have been experiencing their own breakneck pace of planning a one-day celebration that will be a blip on the radar of everyone else's July, August, September... but those blissful pauses between weeks, when friends and family unite to celebrate love and joy are the real anchors of humanity, reminding me of what it's all really about.

so on this hot, sticky Saturday morning, i'm half-venting, half-remembering, half-looking-forward to more of those moments, and these moments like this one right now... when i can sit with a coffee, put my feet up, pet my cat and take a breath to soak it all in. life certainly doesn't slow down, so sometimes, i guess, you have to.